clean slate

10Jul09

so much has happened since i last wrote/deleted what  i initially wrote. things, people, events, emotions, non-happenings.

like i’ve said a million times over, i rarely blog when it matters. sigh.

so what brings me here today? frustration.

 i caught a glimpse of what i thought i wanted to be, who i thought i aspired to be. well, for a start of course (i never aim too low *snort*) and the picture wasn’t pretty. and it was saddening, frustrating. i doubt any of you know what i’m talking about. but just be reminded of this, never piss on people (figuratively, duh) just because you think you know better, because you’re think you’re either older or wiser or smarter or richer. there are reasons for this, of course, and if it isn’t already too obvious, you’ve gotta seriously get an attitude check. the most obvious would be cause sometimes you’re not as bright as you think you are. fullstop. but even if you are, it just doesn’t merit you pissing on people. really. and of course, because hidup ini bagaikan roda.

everything you say represents who you are. well, some people do a fine job of showing us what arses they are, huh.

i rarely stay angry. by george, i hardly get angry. you all know i’m too oblivious (and i ‘d like to think, tolerant) to care. but if i say something’s wrong, something’s wrong. (ok, i so totally hijacked a line from 27 Dresses, which i just watched, and isn’t james marsden just impossibly irresistable in it?)

ramble. ramble. it’s been a month, cut me some slack.

another line. you’re cynical, cranky and impossible. but fighting with you has been the best thing that ever happened to me. sound familiar? i’d say it’s the story of my life.

what else happened? H1N1. let’s just not go there. i hope melbourne is having a blast.

school’s in session next week, and part of me’s excited. caught wind of interesting snippets of gossip and i’m raring for some social experimentation. you just watch the new me. you won’t be able to resist. OR. the more real version of what’s going to happen, i’ll go to class, fade in the background, not a learn a thing til it’s time for some marks, scramble my way through the semester and get barely satisfactory grades in exchange for absolutely nothing gained. how’s that sound?

i’m also frustrated about many other things. the kind of things i usually internalized and not mention. so that just sucks.

and i’m not craving for the ipod touch yet. geez, such a brat.

let’s just end this abruptly, shall we? :/

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