Archive for the 'thoughts' Category

blog-o-mania

27Mar08

isn’t it weird that when you have so much to do, and important ones at that, those are the times that are hardest to complete, like, anything. familiar, much? go through the same thing? don’t we all? (see how i’m trying to make myself sound as guiltless as possible). as much as i try to devote [...]


failure

12Feb08

other people’s fate shouldn’t be dependent on me.
i screw up, i’m a failure, and at the most important of times.


it’s just one of those nights. when you can’t sleep, and your thoughts wander to fond memories which inevitably make you sad. yep, one of THOSE nights.
not too long ago, i go to sleep at night with the thought that all the people (barring family) that i would want to have near me in this [...]


influx

09Nov07

i never thought i’d say i miss studying. as in literally cracking em books. another three weeks til i actually will touch another book, and the worst part? i won’t have another econs subject till i major (foundations of islamic economics aside). damn the system that forced me to take both micro and macro in [...]


contemplation

03Nov07

is it weird that i have ana beatriz barros as my wallpaper?
it’s an editorial shot, mind you.


everyone wants one.
i realize i’ve been tearing up really easily to all sappy “moments” in shows like grey’s anatomy, one tree hill and the likes. romantic comedy endings, pffffft. SOBfest!
i just want MY happy ending, and i want it to be soon.
can i just fast-forward to the part where i become the driven woman who [...]


i have a temper. a short fuse. anger streaks. (close to but not yet) rage blackouts. and what’s worse, it’s selective.
i realize i’m quick to raise my voice. my heart races from a normal pace to rage in miliseconds. i reach conclusions and turn defensive easily.
and for all this while, i’ve always thought i was calm and [...]